"silver tears behind golden smiles"

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“i like the rain as it patters on window panes
and washes away the facades i’ve put up
to shield myself from the overly optimistic sun

i like the fog as it shrouds me
from having to show other people
how i feel underneath my cheerful mask

i like the trees as they tear down
my unnatural happiness and replace it with
real feelings, genuine nature

i like the long winding roads as they show me
a purpose, a journey that leads somewhere uncertain
like the twisting journey of my life

i like the lakeside cabins
isolated from the bustle of society
different and beautiful in its own unconventional way

i like the way blurred pictures
are unclear yet artistic
in the same way life is

i like the way muted colors express
the lack of brightness in my head
and how black, white, and grays are all i’ve ever known

i like the way hands give away the nature of a person
from whether they’re shaking or still
slim or stubby, smooth or calloused

i like the way music
can reach out and make you feel less alone
when you feel lonely in a crowd

i like the way a few short words
like the words of this poem
can say so much about a person, in so little”

- a short poem by me, about me

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i’m casey, and i’m a strong meyers-briggs np with a slight preference of i over e and pretty equal f and t scores with a melancholic temperament. basically, i’m an impulsive introvert who’s a bit of a free spirit and generally relatively sad despite my outwardly happy disposition.

i like music, words, and pretty pictures.

i’m a seventeen year old pansexual who’s sorta questioning my gender (leaning slightly towards feminine) and is mostly androgynous in terms of gender expression. i’m half-chinese, half-american, and i like too many bands to count. with my sexuality and gender identity, for the sake of comprehension and ease i usually just tell people i’m a bisexual girl.

the main genres of music i enjoy are grunge, pop punk, punk, hard rock, and various subgenres of metal (it gets kind of confusing when it comes to metal).

my favorite band ever is nirvana.

i play the guitar, i sing, i play the ukulele, and i play a very basic amount of piano, bass, and drums.

i do theater at school.

i enjoy creative writing.

i enjoy being different and not conforming to the what society thinks is best.

i’m a bit fucked up and a bit of a mess, but who isn’t these days?

i’m bad at about mes.